LMBOOOOO! You are to funny! Try Tylenol with sleep aid, it works for me!

Laura

Thanks for stoppin in claudia....I've been reading you off and on when I'm not dwelling on my own stuff too.  Listen girl...You've had a whole bunch going on.  I'm sorry I wasn't able to reach out to you in your moments of need!!!  You sound beter here...I'm glad.  I will also be praying for you Claudia.  I'm glad your attempt failed !!!  And I'm glad someone listened and got you the help you needed !!!!  Take care. 

I'm glad you're better. I don't know much of anything about your diagnosis. Sorry I can't be of more help. Take care.

Chad

sadly...i do understand that place.  it's an ugly place...remember, of all the things you can't control...your actions YOU CAN!!!  hang in there my friend.

Praying that things get better for you soon....its a hard place to be in, I know, Ive been there myself a time or few....

Take care of YOU....

Love and HUggs

Janica

 Claudia

I hope you start feeling better. I'll keep you in my prayers. Take care.

Chad

Claudia,

Sometimes it takes awhile to find the right meds and the right therapist. I hope you don't do anything stupid. I understand how you feel right now, I was there just a few short weeks ago. I did make it through it though and so can you. Hang in there.

Chad

Hi Claudia.  I've taken some time to do some catching up and I'm so sorry to hear the things that you've been going through.  What a whirlwind of emotions...I don't think this was just a "cry for help" from you....but it turned out to be that, ya know?  I don't battle with depression to the extent that others that I know do...so for me to actually be able to relate...I can't.  But I do have compassion and concern and can hear in your writing the depths of what you feel...and I can tell it's very REAL.  As far as you son goes...I have the same issues with Josh from the under achieving to the wanting to move out..to the feeling like a failure.  I've come to the conclusion that it's just about the pulling away and becoming independent of us as parents...even though they are so far from being ready for that!  Every kid finds there own way the best they know how.  I've known people who were horrible parents who have high achieving kids and visa versa...it's just sometimes about the luck of the draw.  Don't worry yourself with things you can't control.  Easier said than done, huh?  Just know that I'm thinking about you and will be keeping you in my thoughts and prayers.  I agree with your brother...God's got something up his sleeve and He's not ready for you yet !!! 

 Heart Hugs! You are sooooo right...God kept you here for a reason! Wish you the best with all of your plans!

  Love you!,

    Jewel

I swear by vinager.  I know it stinks. But, if you dilute vinager with water and lay a wash cloth on the sunburn, it will remove the heat (which is the source of the pain).  Keep re-wetting and laying the cloth on it until all the heat is removed from the burn and you will no longer hurt!  I know it sounds nasty and it smells...but I do this everytime with my kids and it works!!

I wish I knew what to say that would make it all better but I don't. I'll keep you in my prayers though. Maybe Allie can help you? Take care.

Chad

I hope you feel better soon!  Send me an e-mail later, okay!

Hey. Please stay strong. I'm not trying put a pity-party on me, but I've tried to kill myself 4 times. My mother's sleeping pills, murcury from a themometer, cutting my wrist till the point I didn't feel it anymore, and cutting my jugular. Can you still believe I'm still here?? I can't.

And you know what? I am so very happy I didn't die all of those times. So many things are working for me.

Believe me, things will get better. You just need to give it time. Time heals many wounds.

::virtual hug::

Good to hear that your moods are stable. Take care.

Chad

((((((((((((((Claudia))))))))))) Thank You sooooo much for the email!

   I wrote back..Praying that your week is Filled with Joy and Love!,

                   Jewel

All good news and an answer to our prayers! YAY for having a vacation! YAY for calling to get support!   YAY for getting out and feeling better! Sooooo happy to read your good news!

  Love,

   Jewel

I'm glad you're doing well. Enjoy your vacation. Take care.

Chad

(((((((((((((((((((((Claudia))))))))))))) I sent you an email in response to this entry!  I hope that you recieved it..Let me know!

   Love, Hugs and Prayers!,

          Jewel

I understand what you're going through, I was diagnosed as Bipolar in '96. If you ever need help or just an ear to listen, don't hesitate to ask or comment me. Take care.

Chad

Claudia,

Yes you can go to the er and tell them what you did, what youre feeling now and that you want adn need help....They can help you....

I wish you luck with all you are going through, know you are in my thoughts and prayers.....

Love and HUggs

Janica

Claudia...

I agree with Jewels... healing will start when you forgive yourself....The Lord already has, He's given you a fresh new day to start over...

I also wish there was more I could do than just pray....

Hang in there hun....

Love and HUggs

Janica

((((((((((((((((((Claudia)))))))))))))))))) So sorry that you are feeling so bad!  I wish there was something that I could do other than pray!

   Please forgive yourself...

    Hang in there!

     Love,

      Jewel

((((((((((((((((((((((((((((Claudia))))))))))))))))))))))) Oh Dear One, I am so very, very sorry that you were in so much pain and couldn't see the light at the end of the tunnel! I am very sorry that you believed that the only way out is to take your own life...I am so very grateful to God for sending that police man your way! I am sooooo very grateful that you survived.

   Please know that I love you dearly and am here for you!  We can and WILL make it through this together!!!!!!

   You have our support and unconditional love here at MDD.

    My prayers, thoughts and love are strongly with you!,

                         Jewel

Not let down hun... just really worried.... Praise the Lord for leading those cops to where you were at....The Lord is telling you thast its not your time to go home with Him yet, youve got more living to do.....And he has given you this new chance to start over and become the person He has made you to be.....

Please take care of yourself....if you ever need to vent shoot me an email:  janicapeterson@gmail.com

Thinking of you and praying for you....

Love and HUggs

Janica

(((((((((((((((((Claudia))))))))))))))) I'm sorry that you are down and hurting!

     I'm sorry that Fee let you down. I am sure that he loves you very much- You are sooooooo very lovable!

     You DO belong here...and I DO understand! You fight the Good fight- DearOne...and I am proud of you !

    Write if you ever need to talk!

    Much Love,

        Jewel

 You sound better! YAY to the Heavens! Thanks for all of the great forwards .(emails) 

   Hope that you get the tickets and your weekend is FILLED with BLESSINGS and LOVE!

   Enjoy the race!

   Love,

      Jewel

alright, i'm going to try to explain it for you to understand it.  most of the time i just blubber my way through life enough for me to understand and can never quite tell anyone else how i came about the results...but here it goes. 

on imeem.com, whether it's video or just music, there'll be a code right underneath what you're watching/listening to.  it'll have a little box to check underneath it that says auto play.  i usually check it (so i can hold my readers captive to whatever musical interest i have that day) and then copy the embedded code.  then i come here and just attach it like you would a photo or an icon.  so far, it's worked for me.   hope it works for you.  and i absolutely don't mind if you swipe the idea.  i know music is a passion of yours as well.

I'm making a pot of coffee right now.  I had a similar experience with Richard last night...just didn't include the website...and he woke me up.  His back has been out, so he's been a little "off his game".  He must have been feeling better around 2:00am.  I had woken up because I heard something in the kitchen, which woke him up.  I laid back down to go back to sleep and just when I was good and asleep, he made his move.  I love it when he does that !!!

Enjoy the beach, get some rest.....

HAve a splendid day....

Love and HUggs

Janica

((((((((((((((((Claudia)))))))))) Loved reading about your day at the beach...So proud of you for going!

   I miss my mom too!  So I can relate.

   So happy that you are feeling at Peace- It IS an answer to our prayers!

    Much Love,

        Jewel

Have a wonderful weekend... glad to hear that going to the beach was a good thing....

Even  happier to read that "All is right in the world".... thats a good sign.... I pray it stays that way for you.....

Cant help but wonder are you taking your meds now/yet?

Gods blessings be yours today....

Love and HUggs

Janica

Claudia,  I just got caught back up with your diary...I've not been very good with reading anyone lately.  I am so glad you're feeling better now.  I hope you have a wonderful weekend.

So glad to read a better entry from you today.... Im glad you are feeling alot better today, I hope it continues....  Have a relaxing time at the beach, get in touch with your inner being, the one that needs you....

Love and HUggs  Have a good group today....

Janica

My Dear Friend and Sister,

  I AM holding out my hand to you...I TRULY understand -have been there...You know that!  If you still have my email address-KNOW that you can email me anytime about how you are really feeling!!!!!

    I'm having a bit of an episode myself brought on by resent trauma and stress...But we can get through it together!

   I'm very glad that your dad flew out to be with you...He loves you so very much to have done that!

   I know how it is to want to be with people and yet, not want to!  I know how it is to be unable to return a call.

   KNOW that I am out here praying for you and sending love your way!,

                      Jewel

i know how you feel and let me tell you only you can get yourself out of the set of mind u are stronger then dat think about all the great things you have accomplise as a person just dont throw it all away i know its hard and easy to say but call your friend talk to her no one is feeling sorry for you but yourself but you dont have to i bet your a great person...you can do it if i done it for sooo many yrs so can u dont let ur mind play games with you ..its all about controlling and haveing dat power and control over yourself well if you ever need to talk to someone dont think about it twice and write me or something ill gladly be able to talk to you :)

*reaching my habd out towrds you*  I understand have been there myself many a time...and I never wish to go back there again... Please hun start by stopping taking your sisters meds and begin taking your own, youve got to give them a chance to work... its a LONG wait dont get me wrong, but it is a wait well worth it I assure you of that....

Also know that the Lord is always there for you, turn to Him, take His hand let HIm guide you through this....

Feel free to email me anytime you want to.... I get my email frequently throughout the day....    eternityjones@hotmail.com

Hope you get to feeling better soon...

Love, HUggs and Prayers

Janica

  ***Claudia***

Please call Allie and let her reach out to you............I know you want to have a friend to hold you, so just let her know that you need one. I'm praying for you to find the person you need, and very soon.

I understand....and my hand is always reaching out...please don't let go...

Hun,

I have bipolar too... Ive been "stble" for about a year now, with some minor manias and depressive episodes in there too....I know what its like to come down to, back to the darkness... I used to love to live in the manias, they were so vivid, so real, so intense, and not to mention I was the fun girl of the whole world... But I tell you what if it werent for the numerous pills I take a day I would not be where I am today, working, in college, managing a family, and taking care of myself....(Mind you I take I think it is 21 pills now a day, 6 are for my kidneys but the rest is for my mental illnesses)....Feel free to write me here anytime you want, I check my diary a lot throughout the day....Ive been where you are....

Good luck and prayers are being sent up for you....

Love and HUggs

Janica

i think it's smart that you told vinnie to stay away.  if fee found out, he'd be hurt you didn't tell him about it.  that you hid it from him.  if vinnie wants what's best for you, he'll understand.

glad your dad's out of the hospital.  sending prayers his way hoping he stays well.

we can be "my dad's in the hospital" buddies.  my dad's in too.  he's havng trouble breathing and his blood pressure has dropped alarmingly low.  i hope you're dad's feeling ok soon, and i hope he doesn't have a stroke, but if he does, i'm glad he's already at a hospital where he can get the help he needs quickly.  hugs and prayers for you claudia.

btw, glad my entry last night cheered you up a little.

Claudia!!!
I am praying for him! I hope he is okay too.
Please keep us updated!
Muchlovee!
rana

[SlayerChick]

you're dogs are sooo cute. 

i feel the same way about new england weather.  there's alost no 70 degree days.  it goes from 50 to 108 overnight. 

Billy Joel's still alive? I didn't know that...hmmm... maybe he's a ghost... Ahh, well, hope you had fun at the concert anyway, even if you were watching a dead guy preform.

CJ

YAY YAY YAY for all of your good news!

Ugh ugh, retail. I don't know WHY i stay in it. I guess i'm too lazy to change? I kind of liked the freedom of working some mornings, some evenings, some weekends, some weekends off... in the beginning. Yeah, not anymore, now i wish for a 9-5 m-f. One day, one day... It's a paycheck, so i feel well off enough to HAVE  a paycheck, especially with how the economy is right now. That's what keeps me going, literally.

Good to hear things are going ok with you.

:)  I'm so glad you had a great day!!!!  I hope the party goes great as well~ Enjoy that sweet little girly of yours~

[mammabear]

Happy Birthday Angelina!!!!

Have a great time celebrating that big #7 coming in....and how fast time flies. Enjoy every minute of it that you can Claudia, and I'm thrilled to hear that you know how to enjoy the normal 'boring' days that come along; so many do not. You're sounding so much better, and I'm so happy for you and your family. You have a great rest of the weekend, and we'll see you next week. Michael

Dear Precious Claudia,

  I'm sooooo glad to see an update from you and to know that your moods are more stable. YAY God!  I've been praying for that faithfully each morning in my prayer journal.

   In my experience, I found that it took time to learn to feel a normal joy without the mania...This JOY is more peaceful and less damaging.  I KNOW that you will get there in time...Keep walking forward.

  I'm so very proud of you and everything that you have done in your recovery! 

   Much Love,

       Jewel

((((((((((((((((((((9Claudia)))))))))))))))) YAY ! I'm so glad to read this entry! You really do sound better!

   I'm proud of you for hanging in there...I'm proud of you for making the effort to get out despite how you feel! Go YOU!

    Your Mother's Day sounds like it will be lovely.

   I think that starting your own business from home is a GREAT idea!

    Happy Mother's Day!

    Love,

        Jewel

Hiya sweetie-me again. I really enjoy reading your entries, as they let me know that someone out there has the same feelings as I do. But I also DONT like to read them because I hate that you feel this way. I mentioned in my last comment to you that I was on a new med, & it just so happens that the one I'm on is also Lamictal. Is it doing any good for you? How long have you been on it, & what is your dosage?

I so hope that you feel better soon. I know it's hard, & its always a day to day thing. Just keep your head up, & try your best to get through. That's all anyone can ask of you.

You're very loved Claudia.

[[[[Hug x a million]]]]

My Dear Precious Claudia,

   i'm proud of you for updating, for hanging in there, for putting up the good fight of faith!

   How much I relate to this entry!  I use to be ruled by the bipolar...It kepted me locked away in the house for many years and I could NEVER make plans ahead of time because I just didn't know what mood I would be in and if I would be able to carry through.

    When I feel good, I wonder if I am in the beginnings of a mania..sometimes I am but due to the meds, I don't go off the deep end!  THEY WILL GET YOUR MEDS STRAIGHTENED OUT...YOU WILL SOON FEEL MUCH BETTER! Hold on to that vision and Hope.

    I still don't trust or go by my feelings...I don't think any of us should...feelings can be so fickle and misleading.  I say my prayers for Guidance and try to go by The Holy Spirits prompting and guidance. 

 I also take lamictal.   With that I take abilify, zoloft, risperdal and camprol ( The alcohol pill) - I wonder what meds you are on?  Perhaps you are undermedicated? Please keep trying- they WILL find the right meds.

  I'm proud of you for taking your meds and working hard in your recovery!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

    Love, Hugs and Prayers,

          Jewel